slowed

its a bit disconcerting being on a ship again. there are many perks and many positives. but it's not all positive. and all the little things i don't appreciate are the first thing i find i'm remembering.

for example, money is all done through a ship account that is linked to a credit card or debit card or prepaid with cash. since i am a financial idiot, of course i didn't prepare for this. no credit cards, no cash, and not enough in my debit account to clear the hold they have to put. so i'm broke till weds. not terrible on a ship filled with free food and coffee (my main needs) but pretty inconvenient because i can't access the ship internet with out a linked account to pay for it. so i'm totally cut off for a few days. i'm typing this on sunday afternoon, and won't post it till at least weds. it's like a time machine.

on the plus side, the small cabins are really fun and not at all claustrophobic like everyone made them out to be. and the ship itself is huge and very new compared to others i've been on. it's under 2 years old. this week is all about rehearsal and putting up our shows, but after it's done, i'm sure i'll have some fun exploring.

i have been taking a lot of pictures already, all from my phone. :) i'll be posting them primarily on facebook i think. i'll include a link to the album here eventually here's a link to the album, on the off chance that someone reads this and that someone is not already connected to me on facebook.

i've been doing a lot of thinking about why i feel so much lingering depression and dread from leaving. it has a lot to do with the lady issue, plus occupy, but it can't be just that. this contract, this job, is such a great opportunity (money and experience) so i can't be totally down on it. i'll think more and probably have a long post about philosophy and what not. more just to get it out, but partly to make me feel smart. :)